Wednesday, October 25, 2006

A Thank You

I have never questioned Friendship until now. It sucks 'cause just when you think you're at that time in your life when you already have a set of friends you think of as dependable, trustworthy, and loving, something happens and you just can't do anything about it but cry.

So before fate surprises me again, I'll take this chance to thank my angels.


TAKER: Thank you for being the only friend in the You and Me group who actually cares. You're the one who constantly checks up on me. You reassured to me that there are still friends capable of proving the real essence of friendship. I love you for being you. When you think I'm selfish, you tell it straight to my face. When you think I'm getting fatter, you say it. When you think I'm pretty, you say it. (Wahaha) I'm planning to keep you for the rest of my life, whether you like it or not. Thank you. You don't know how much I need people like you in my life. I love you.

MAR ans NING: My dear bestfriends. Even if we don't see each other that often, I know nothing changes. THAT'S HOW TRUE FRIENDS ARE TESTED. Even with all the separation, everything's just the same the next time you see each other. You guys give the right advices all the time, I admire you for knowing a person too much.

JACQ: Quality and Quantity! People tried to tear us apart, we both know that. I was mad at you for a time but you never left my side. We tolerate each other but when it comes down to us getting caught with anything we've done, we're not like other people who just leave their friends hanging and not feeling sorry for anything. We're one in a million. You're one in a million, even when we don't agree on a lot of things. I love you for being you because you're unique, and not misunderstood.

MC People: You guys light up my life. You never fail to make me smile, especially when I'm totally down. Together, we may not be the most mature people, but we do know know how to treasure everyone who's in the group. You guys will always be my rainbow.

ANJI: We have been friends since Grade School and my God, we never change! When together, we can talk about anything and everything! It's nice that we're closer again. I missed you..

MOCH: Thank you for always listening to all sides of any story. You were never biased. You know what's right and what's wrong. I can always run to you, we both know that. Thank you for always making me feel safe when I'm with you. Come to think of it, even when I'm not with you, I still feel safe knowing you're my friend.

TIFF: For always listening, thank you. You've been always there for me. Haha I was laughing really hard the other night. Sobrang senti ko yata sayo the other day. You know, the whole "Tiff, I'm sorry ek-ek" Don't get me wrong though, I meant everything I said to you. I always do. I hope you're happy.

MOYA, THEA, VIR, TETEL, AMP, DIVI, PAT: The new faces. Haha. You guys have been with me everyday during those moments when I needed someone to hold me and keep me strong enough to get Aidz back. Thank you for keeping me sane. I love you all.

MY COUSINS: It's so rare that you see cousins who are also close friends. I'm happy we're close. I've been missing the Sunday get togethers because of the damn work but I hope you know I would be doing anything to be with you guys again if I can. Babawi din ako. Anais, thanks for listening even if you were so bothered that day at Cantina.

AIDZ: You'll always be one of my best friends. Thank you for giving me another chance to prove myself. I love you, I always will.


There's never a right time to say goodbye, but I'm gonna try. Goodbye to you who I thought was my dear friend. I'm starting a new life, and much as I want you to be there, I simply can't because my heart's still not willing enough.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Crash and Burn

I just did the biggest mistake of my life.

They say love is all about trust, loyalty, honesty. Guess I screwed that up big time. But Bub, I was in a very low point in my life. It was so wrong. I was so selfish not to think of what you might think. Or react. Or feel. God, I really wasn't thinking then.

I am sorry. I've never meant the word sorry like this, so please, just take it.

It's gonna be hard for me to let you leave cause frankly, it's worse than dying. It was all so sudden. One phone call and it's all over. I can't lose you now, but I understand.

Call me whatever you want, curse me as mant times as you want, I'd gladly accept it. Just don't ever doubt my love for you. I was our biggest fan. It's so often that we find ourselves in that true love that a lot of people look for. I made a mistake, but that doesn't prove that my love for you is not real at all. I love you, as simple as that.

Bub, You know I'll always be waiting. I'm sorry.