Hear ye, MarkProffers!

Starting a new life in miss-halfway.tumblr.com

Will be updating this from time to time still.

They're too sad. Too happy. Too heartwarming.

Run away, Kar. As fast as you can. Please. Just run away. It's not safe.

Amidst the storm and the flood, you are still hot.

Sticking to Manila forever, flooded or not, simply bec amidst all the drama, there's still overpowering love and support from everyone.

God bless those who donated, helped, rescued, and sacrificed due to typhoon Ondoy. Good karma will always find its way back to you.

I sure hope music can save Manila too.

There's a rainbow always after the rain.

It's a commitment. And an assurance that the world can still make you smile.

24

With all the freedom, exciting adventures, and countless possibilities out there, being a twenty-something is the best.

Had a happy birthday, thank God for a charmed life.

I'm sitting in the little room
watching you pretend that you don't love me like you used to
I can see the lies inside your eyes, I cry
cause I can't forget all the things that we've been through

When the walls come crumbling down
Dust replaces the magic that we found

What if I told you that once I leave I let go
Would you believe that I am stronger than you know

You wished it away now I can't stay

Remember in the little room
the time we thought we had something special no one else had
Well I don't understand how something so good,
something so good can turn out so bad

I know it hurts you even though you can't show it
I had to knock you down or I would have never known it

You wished it away now I can't stay

I miss you
I hate the way you've made me hate you
You couldn't say "stay"
Why can't I move on?

Of friends and foes

There are things I do because I have to, and there are things I do because I want to.

Oftentimes I brush people off for a reason. It was never for good riddance's sake, contrary to popular belief. I brush people off because sooner or later, they'll end up getting more hurt and loved at the same time by me. I don't want that. I can't take that. I've done it too many times that experiencing it again, keeping someone I know I'll hurt eventually, is just too painful and exhausting.

Sab's mom once told me that the older I get, the easier and faster it would be for me to actually count my true friends.

I try to keep close those who can stand me and all my daily ramblings. The people with me now are the ones that were true since day 1. I may not see them often but i know there'll never be no brushing off with them. Ever.

To those who I can't keep now, see you in my dreams.

Just one more moment, one more happy goodnight.

I've only lost one real special person in my life and that's my grandpa when I was in Grade School. I cried then but of course, all kids can only understand as much.

Days come and go as expected but when things go slightly out of direction, your world suddenly stops. Mine stopped this noontime with a call from my brother. It was a simple, simple task.


Right now, I'm grieving, I'm barely believing. I am totally in denial.

Yoga's been the best, sweetest, and most loving dog. She's always been asking for attention and I denied that a lot of times. I am cruel and insensitive, unappreciative and undeserving of her love. I am sorry.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. GOODBYE, BABY. YOU'VE BEEN BEAUTIFUL IN EVERYBODY'S EYES.


Nobody knows it, but you've got a secret smile and you use it only for me.

Before the Worst

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It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin City on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is trying to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are you hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is trying to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Let's take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

10 messages to 10 people.

1. Ayusin mo na kasi! Di ko kayang saluhin ka forever.

2. I love you and I miss you often. I still think about you in the morning.

3. Feeling mo angas ka? Hanapin mo muna identity mo, please.

4. Grabe na makasakit a. Ako pa ang nagmukang swapang, e hindi naman nakakaintindi.

5. Ang damot mo naman.

6. Thank you for being with me the other day. Reinforced my belief that I still have loving friends.

7. I think you're cute. Dreamt about you once, but that's about it. HMMM.

8. Please don't waste your time trying to get me, you won't like me if you get to know me.

9. Don't worry, everything's gonna be just fine. Please, don't let other people hurt you that way. You don't need another person to be happy. I'm here, now and always.

10. Congratulations, sweetie. I know you'll do well soon. Make everyone proud.

Reboot

There are countless important days in my life but I wanna claim FEBRUARY 17, 2009 as the date that will turn my life around once again. Finally, I'm back to Marketing. Finally, I've regained my self and showed them that I'm worthy.

Here's my 2009 goals re-set:

1. To organize successful parties and get-togethers for MarkProf as the Chairman of the Events Committee for 2009.
2. To convince my parents to finally get me that well-deserved car.
3. OR to save enough money to buy it myself.
4. To launch a product successfully by the end of the year.
5. To SAVE.
6. To actualize the business that me and Earl are planning by middle of the year.
7. To have at least 3-5 long vacations this year.
8. To get my Ateneo body back [which I hope I'll get from all the future OTs].
9. To get another tattoo to celebrate my lucky year, 2009.
10. To discover a new talent/hobby.

Tumatakbo

Tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na ako ng panahon.
Tila bawat araw pare-pareho, parang kahapon.

I don't wanna feel like I'm getting old, but am I? I'm only 23. Everyday's getting a little more boring than the one before it. Everything's a little predictable. Since I stopped my everyday drinking habit, I just work [or not work and bum instead] on weekdays and drink on weenends. That's basically it. A movie once in awhile and a shopping spree every week's the highlight of my work week. Boring. BORING.

I wanna have a vacation and go somewhere interesting, somewhere with a deep history and a great view. I wanna spend nights talking endlessly to different people about their dreams, their fears, their passions, and all the crazy shit that happened to them. I wanna discover new talents and see if I can still pursue them. I wanna go clubbing every weekend again and feel like I can still keep up with those college kids who think they rule the world.

I don't wanna go to magic899.fm and look at the latest songs just so my Ipod's updated again. I don't wanna look at my accounts everyday anymore. I just want to experience life the way I did before, the way little things feel so warm on the inside.


BTW, I'm finally up for transfer to Marketing. My dream finally coming true.

I miss