Post Secrets

Every single person has at least one secret that would break your heart. If we could just remember this, I think there would be a lot more compassion and tolerance in the world.

Here are some secrets of strangers that I believe can be mine as well.
I don't want to grow old. If possible, I want to die when I'm 50 already. Ok fine, at most is 55. I'm afraid to be useless. I'm terrified that someday, nobody will ever want me anymore, and that I will have no value to anyone, not even to the ones I consider as my family. I want to be remembered as someone who loved life and not someone who, in the end, became a depressed looking-out-the-window type of old person.
I've been lied to so many times in my life, but lying to someone is, for some reason, the worst feeling. It's not the lying that's hard 'cause truth is , lying is one of the easiest things to do in the world. It's the thought of the person that's been lied to finding out about the whole lying thing. It's never gonna be easy and fun to hurt someone.

Cmon, I bet everyone's done this already.
I usually tell this to myself when I'm drunk and I see someone cute. I just can't help it sometimes. What more if all the guys in the world are 300-ish?! My God, I'll be a slut then, and I won't be ashamed of it. For now though, I'll be settled with dirty thoughts.

Thank God! If they're not as screwed up as they are now, I could have committed isolation due to no fun from the outside world. I love that my friends are drunkards. I love that they are magnets of problems. I love that we are all crazy, fucked up people. That makes us one hellava fun group! I don't care whether or not they really are bad influences. As long as I'm happy and as long as they're not ruining my studies, I'm fine with the everyday drinking.Who isn't?!