Sleigh bells ring, ARE YOU LISTENING?

It's the very first Christmas time that I don't feel that Merry.

You say "sana karmahin ako", I say you don't know how much I gave up for you that I think I deserve something more than just that line. I'm not saying this to make you feel thankful / grateful that I gave up things for you coz I did that without your influence but I hope you know that I started counting on you the day I made that decision. I think I deserve something more than "Bat kita aalagaan? Malaki ka na, kaya mo na alagaan sarili mo Kar. Di ka dapat umaasa sakin." Why can't I?!?!?! What the hell is the point if I can't actually count on you!?!

Last night I heard the most hurtful things that any special person can tell me.

You say I'm selfish, I say you've known that ever since we became a couple actually. My selfishness was never an issue to you before, why is it such a big deal now?! I thought you love/d me for being so demanding and so needy, what's the difference with then and now?! One tip honey, you get into a relationship with one person because you love that person for who he/she is, and not for who he/she can become. You're trying to turn me into someone Im not by making me understand that you cant fucking come to me when Im sick because you wanna buy car parts. You compare with your officemates and accuse me of being less of a girlfriend as compared to them. You tell me that Im the only reason why you feel that way about yourself when, in fact, I have no intentions of doing that to you at all. I am hurt, I hope you know that.

Thank you to the people who are always there for me whenever needed. I ALWAYS LOVE YOU, NO MATTER WHAT. Zham-fong LOVE TO YOU, DARLING!