christmas time

christmas time. yeah yeah yeah. its about that time when we have to give gifts, say our best wishes and show our sweetest smiles. i sometimes wonder, why do we have to put all this effort during christmas when we can be giving all year long? its kinda sad and yet fun at the same time to see people give gifts just for the sake of giving. well there are of course some (sometimes including me) who give gifts just for the sake of receiving.

want i dont like about christmas is that i have to pretend almost all the time that im so happy with my family. well at times i definitely am. but there are more times when im just so tired of all the yelling, all the blaming, and all the harsh words i receive from them. christmas makes that kind of feeling even worse.

friends and cousins are those that make me crave for christmas. all the traditions that we do, from singing, to dancing, to acting, to cheating, and of course to gambling.. bwahahaha we have it all...

hmm what to wear? its the season for wearing those once-in-awhile-usage kind of clothes. i like wearing something new during christmas and new year days. it makes me feel so pormado. hehe.

stellar

Meet me in outer space.
We could spend the night;
watch the earth come up.
I've grown tired of this place;
won't you come with me?
We could start again.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
Meet me in outer space.
I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights.
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way
that I can show you how
it feels to be inside of you.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do
Ohhh...
You are stellar.
You are stellar.
How do you do it?
make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
its better than I ever knew.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.

STELLAR --> planetary; cosmological
there are times when u feel so happy being with the person you treasure the most. even in silence, there's that magical feeling (pagbigyan nyo na ko inlove e)... that feeling where u seem to be somewhere else, somewhere stellar.... kaya to the person i love, i give u this song..

REALITY --> another bum day. but at least i got to do some christmas shopping for some people. finally! its been a long time na rin. i usually go to the mall for movies nalang e. tsk tsk tsk... la nako money ;( but no worries, it was all worth it. i had fun goin to the mall with my not-so-mall-friendly friends today. haha!
--> i saw one of monica's techi stuff today. uhhh technology. i hate it. im so not updated with the new stuff. but so what?!? simple life means simple needs right? the more i dont know bout all those stuff, the more i wont crave for them. its hard for me to see something i want. i know myself too well. i know its bad but i usually want to get what i want even if i dont really need it. uhhh kar so selfish
--> my friends tried to hide my phone today and honestly, mejo napikon ako! uhhhh.. ehehe pikon naman talaga ko before pa. oh well, naiiyak na kasi nun e but what the heck, they gave it back anyway. uhhh... let it go kar..
--> lapit na christmas.. what to give???????? la na ngang money, no ideas pa to come up with a solution sa kawalan ko ng money. hahaha. maybe il give gifts after xmas. para i can give them nicer ones. siguro naman after xmas i have money na..



why?
why not...

happy days are here again

calmer-> same old day but it doesnt feel like it. bum bum bum with who else but my dear bum friends.. sab jacq dian. starbux may be our life. everyday we bum. that's our exercise. other's dont appreciate that much but hey, bumming is an art. u gotta experience it to appreciate it. some say its pointless. oh come on, i bet they just dont have the time to do it. every once in awhile one has to stop and let life as it is. coz if you don't, then ul get stuck in this oh so fucked up world.

downer-> wasnt able to meet aidz today though... so sad.. so sad.. its a sad sad situation...

ecstacy-> met some old friends today. its been awhile. sarap magreminisce. specially high school days. i miss the feeling of being so carefree and wild. well, until now naman e. extremes lang nung high school. love it! uhhhhhh

think about it

in silence, when the whole day is over, when everyone you know sleeps away, you'll eventually ralize that you're alone. nobody cares until they're awake again

think about it

in silence, when the whole day is over, when everyone you know sleeps ayaw, you'll eventually realize you're alone. nobody cares until they're awake again

bwahahahaha

finally! i have one of my own...

almost everybody has this na so i just had to see how this thing works.. anyway, there's no harm in trying right?

aidz is beside me right now.. for those who don't know him, he's my.. umm.. awkward sabihin.. but fine.. he's my boyfriend. hehe hate that word! anyway, its our 14th monthsary right now. haha.. that's right.. tumagal ako ng ganito katagal without any break up (well may 1 time pero as if naman.. 2hrs after kami ulit e..) or someone na kasabay nya. syempre naman.. at times like these, kailangan nang magseryoso. i gotta be mature and serious in life.. .... ... yeah right!?!? hahaha.. but seriously, i love him. well duh... di naman kami tatagal ng ganito if i dont right?

this is the first time in my life that ive been really aware of reality.. and guess what.. it sucks! dami ko problems bout school ngayon and im actually very stressed out because of it. school problems for me are very sensitive topics. di lang ako ung affected.. pati parents ko and SOME of my friends. i dont wanna let my parents down sana but i did and it hurts me a lot. tangina.. di nyo alam ang feeling ng little by little nabibigo ang hopes and dreams ng parents mo for you. uuuhhhhhh... i hate it.

meron akong ginawang some sort of quote when i was felt all alone....in silence, when the whole day is over, when everyone you know sleeps away, you'll eventually realize that you're alone. nobody cares until they're awake again.

ang bitter ba? oh well.. dont get me wrong.. im happy almost 98% of the time... cguro the words friendly and happy are made just for me.

welll,,,, til next time cguro