this one's for reji.

What are the things you enjoy doing even when there's no one around you?
bum in my room. (yah, i know. so sad. i bum even when im alone.)
blog.
find someone who'll talk to me over the phone.
read. (fuck im such a poser. i only do that when im motivated.)
dance as much as i want to.
sing as loud as i want to.
pluck my eyebrows. (its s addictive!)

What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?

yosi.
sleep.
aidz moments. really.
food.
especially fries.
my perky friends.
jokes. (trust me. i can take even the corniest ones.)

7 things that scare you:

snakes. ohh phobia. if only i could kill all the snakes in the world.
being alone.
death.
ghosts.
being very very very poor. (oh my gawd im sorry. this is such a pathetic, feeling, irritating answer but its so true. havent you thought of it yourself?)
separation.

7 things you like the most:

so sorry but i cant answer this. according to everyone, i love everything. there all such favorites!

7 important things in your bedroom:

box of letters.
pictures.
cds.
boom box. (ooh yeah.)
clothes.
gifts from other people.
accessories.

7 random facts about you:

bum.
fun.
funny.
cute. (this is my blog!)
pacute. (fine.)
sweet.
irresistable. (again, this is my blog)

7 things you plan to do before you die:

travel the world.
marry aidz. (gawd.)
actualize my dream advertising company.
think of a commercial's concept/script.
become famous.
tell my mom i love you in person.
witness a miracle. (a walk to remember poser)

7 things you can do:

raise my eyebrows alternately. (ooohh)
love.
crafty stuff.
write sad stories. (i swear. i only tell my "created" stories to aidz)
be childish to get what i want.
make people laugh.
emcee-ing.

7 things you can't do:

sing. (my frustration.)
break up with someone without feeling guilty. i usually dont.
betray my true friends.
eat a vegetarian meal.
kill myself.
look at a snake's picture.
take a bath without my radio.

7 things that attract you to the opposite sex:

humor.
personality.
smile.
eyes.
wit.
hair.
likes/dislikes of the person.

7 things you say the most:

so?
whatever!
di nga?
oh!
bubba you miss me?
love you!
seryoso?

7 celeb crushes:

ryan philippe.
angelina jolie.
chad michael murray.
wendell ramos.
justin timberlake.
freddie prince jr. (sometimes)
chris evans

7 people that you want to take this quiz:
aidz (bub take this quiz post it here)
jacq
sab
taker
eli
marla
ning

brighter than sunshine

I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling

I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight
Suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you.. What a feeling...

Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me

What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine. And its brighter than sunshine

*a real, messy, beautiful, twisted, sunshine bub. what a feeling.

it will take time i guess

to the ones i hurt, im so sorry.


to bub. sorry. thanks. we almost had another breakup. hope you understand why i was kinda drunk with the girls last time.
everything is just so different when im with you guys. i know they accept me for being so magaslaw and makulit already, but its just so weird being that way when im the only the girl there. i miss dancing bub. i danced with the girls and everything was so new to me again. why dont you come along next time. miko's?

to you guys, its not that i hate you now. in all truth, i still love you. i just dont know if i should still listen to everything you guys say. if you're gonna rant about something, rant in full details. i dont like hearing super biased stories. if you're wrong, you're wrong. if you're both wrong, then you're both wrong. just admit what you know and what you dont know rather than making something up.
oh and one more thing, please dont go telling other people that you dont wanna be with us anymore. dont go pretending that you dont ever wanna tell us anything anymore coz the moment you dont have any place to go or any friends to be with, you immediately text us. if you're irritated, then you're irritated. if you wanna be part of the circle, then dont go telling other people that you'll never ever want to be with us again. thats kinda hurting you know. fine. we did something bad. we know. maybe we should talk. or maybe we shouldnt. lets just clarify everything. and please. everything this time.

im sorry. really sorry.

not to worry, everything will be ok in the end. if its not ok, then its not the end. right?

miriam, oh miriam

im starting to love miriam. woooohhhhh..

i love them. they're so transparent. everything they do is as real as they get. no pretentions. no posers. well at least those i really know.

cheers to carmi and her bucket. thea, you'll always be my favorite vanity. pat you're always funny. and alex, yes alex. we're close na. nice eating ox brain with you.

glad to have known these people. and more. im ecstatic now

chamelion

lets stop with all the bs-ing.

cut all the crap.

truth.

week long drama

i finally have the time to update my dear blog after a week, i think. so here's a week full blahness.

MONDAY (new stuff day)
for the first time, jacq and i tried being independent. we tried commuting from katipunan to robinson's metroeast. poor us. we looked like 3yr old kids looking for our mommys. seriously, we looked stupid. any snatcher could have gotten everything we had. so much for independence jack! some bad situations end differently though. because of our 'stupidity' (shit jack sorry is stupidity such a strong word for us?), we got to meet ish. a schoolmate of jack. he's nice.
had my hearing that day also. fuck discipline committees. they're such kill joys.
sab entertained us with her KOKOLOGY thing. i must admit, kokology can be very addictive.

TUESDAY (exercise day)
cut two of my classes. played two games (with five sets each) of table tennis in the morning. it was so tiring. won one game and well, lost the other. in the afternoon, went jogging with jack in moro, ateneo. poser. exercise will never be my forte. i hate it. exercise hates me.

WEDNESDAY
bum

THURSDAY
bum again. i finally made a decision. im going to bulacan next weekend instead of caliraya. gaf, better make sure you do your part. we had a deal.

FRIDAY
went to seatles tomas with sab to do our mag layouts. went to her house after. aidz went there too. after an hour of nonsense drama, we finally said goodbye to sab (who i guess was in an awkward situation already). aidz kasi e. you didnt go to my house ;( tuloy inarte attack ako. anyway, he treated me to mcdo (yumm) then we're off to jack's. drank two 1/2 bottles of beer. woohoo! haha.
last stop: my house. fun!

SATURDAY
had a meeting with our magazine's business consultant (a.k.a my dad). im actually happy that he's our consultant. i think my dad's a great businessman. i wanna be sort of like him when i grow up. (singit. he opened a new business with tito ben recently. import export from china. not the tutuban type of business. just bragging. oh and go to his school fresh college grads! bragging again.)
anyhoo... my head hurt during the meeting because of all the terms my dad was trying to teach us. uhh. plus i didnt smoke during the whole meeting! i hate that feeling. went to dior's after. it was fun seeing high school friends under one roof. missed ning again.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIOR! I LOVE YOU

irresponsible

walked out of two of my classes today. everything is such a routine now. i wake up around 5.30. i go to katipunan for my morning dose of yosi. i go to school to attend my undefineably boring subjects. i usually dont gain anything new or intersting from those classes. boo-hoo.

boring. boring. boring.

im at the library right now (just got out of one of my classes). fuck. see how exciting this day is?! everything is so boring. i dont wanna go to my next class. NSTP sucks big time. but i have to.

gotta follow the routine now.

got the time?

watched 'if only' with sab awhile ago.

according to peyton (from one tree hill), people always leave. if that's true, then what's the point of being close to someone? maybe thats why there are a lot of people who build walls like there's no tomorrow. they sharpen their spikes everytime they get to know others, thinking they'll eventually get hurt.

yes. its true. people always leave. so what then? i once received a quote from a friend. it said that time is the most precious gift you could give to someone because by allowing that person to share moments with you, youre giving him/her the time of your life that you could never take back. why do we really have to think of losing someone when we could think of how special it is having the person we love at the present? ***my favorite cousin left for the states. sab's leaving when she graduates. everybodys graduating (no more bumming for me at katipunan everyday).
wenki will be working in bacolod. gawd i need to stop now.

ive always demanded time from my cousins and friends. partly because im not given the 'special' time at home, i guess. time has always been precious to me. a minute beside someone doing nothing but 'closeness' is better than an all night partying with people. we can never get to know all the people we love beyond skin deep. too bad. if only there was enough time.

imagine, if nobody really left, then whats the point of time in this world? everybody wouldve taken each other for granted. time allows us to appreciate people. time indirectly teaches us to show and feel love. time tells us that it is not everyday that we get the chance to tell someone how we really feel. time tells us that until we have the time, we gotta do what we gotta do.

breakups, death, or distance doesnt put an end to love. it doesnt put an end to what happened between two people during the time they're together. how could guys from the navy stand the loneliness of being separated from their families if not for the time and memories they shared? memories and time spent with a person last longer. even those that we try to forget.



to those ive spent time with, its been a pleasure. thanks for giving me part of your lives. 'my heart is yours now.'

she's back!

YUP! she's definitely back! my favorite cousin ate ging is back. she surprised everybody with her 'comeback'! even her mom doesnt know! i missed you like hell!

im glad you're here. everything seems to be more peaceful and fun when you're here. i really missed you.

droopy

perhaps we all give the best of our hearts uncritically to
those who hardly think about us in return
--- Lucas, One Tree Hill

i hate missing people. its torture.