Saturday, June 25, 2005

i hate

just had a fight with aidz. okay so maybe i went overboard again. but hey, im sure i didnt go waaayyyyy overboard this time.

i hate it when he doesnt make paramdam everytime he's with his friends.

i hate it when he thinks im being so childish and papansin when all i really want is for him to really listen to what im saying (saying = complaining to him).

i hate it when he doesnt understand me or my opinions.

i hate it when he'd think im being so selfish again. maybe i am. everybody is. pucha.

i hate it when i pathetically say sorry even when he's wrong.

i hate it when im so demanding. and idealistic. and pathetic. too pathetic.

i hate that i hate us fighting. cant imagine being angry for half a day. thats when i become pathetic. just to end the fight, id try anything even if he doesnt want me to do something. why cant i be just a little bit mapride sometimes?

i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

np.

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