Tuesday, July 19, 2005

what now

Love
same old same old.
haay. ive been explaining that to aidz last night. you see, i was never really used to long term relationships. nor am i used to being so.... loyal. fine. super feeling na pakinggan, but those stuff are definitely not my forte. though im really loving every minute with aidz, there's always this something in me that screams "I NEED SOMETHING NEW!". ewan ko ba. its not that im bored or anything naman. in fact, im contented with him pa nga e. pucha... isn't it ironic? dont you think? a little too ironic. yeah, i really do think. GOING BACK, i think i just need something to stop the whole routine thing. its really hard for me to explain everything im feeling right now. everytime i try to tell him my feelings, he never gets my real, exact point.
oh...we had this poser huge fight last night. i told him not to text, call, or try to see me for the next whole week. i told him that 'cause he called me selfish and so not giving. pucha! i may be selfish in a whole lot of ways but im purely giving to you aidz! anyway, there i was again this morning. the same pathetic kar. after all the "dont text me for a whole week" thing, i was the one who texted him (as usual). i even asked him to go to me even if i demandingly told him the night before not to. shit im so pathetic. hay nako. for the record, he did come. cant resist me daw e! hahaha
grabe. im such a boomerang when it comes to love. he could throw me anywhere but ill always go back to him. oh well. relationships talaga. cant live with them; cant live without them.

Life with Friends
last saturday was such a long day. went to katipunan. met up with sab. did some stuff for the mag. went to sab's house. made 84 sandwiches. went to camille's party. went to marco's house after. home by 4am.

camille was so pretty during her party. her boyfriend gwen is so friendly! i never felt out of place there. they were all so welcoming. such filipinos! by the way, that was officially my first miriam party. way to go kar!

marco's party was the highlight of my day (other than the fact that i was with bub)! i had so much fun! sab and i were way sooo perky that night. i cant even determine whether i was down when i got home because of the beer i drank (haha poser tomador!)or the perkiness! i saw 'he who must not be named' dance again. ewwwww! hahahaha saw some old faces there like lee and luigi. weird! those were my first two crushes in admu! wow. such revelations. there were some 'always there' faces too like chino, charles, dino, fred, jp, moch, li blah blah... one thing i loved about that night is that i got to meet new people: bboy and d.a. i miss meeting new people! love it!

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