tragedy

there are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, and one is to gain it - one tree hill

when i heard that line, i dont know whether to mourn or be happy. it's so true that my life's highlights flashbacked all of a sudden the moment i heard it. they really are tragedies. life is so unfair. it never gives you everything you want. fine, got the point. but can there be times when you can get the best of both worlds? c'mon. even a second or two would be worth all the effort.

its so hard to meet someone you can get along with. its not just the typical "oh we both like spaghetti" kind of connection. its the deeper one. its when you look at the person and you, for some reason, know what he/she is thinking of. its when you laugh at the silliest things, even when all of your other friends think there's nothing funny at all. its when you know you can't sleep without hearing the person's voice. its when you appreciate the littlest of efforts, 'cause that person never really does anything sweet to anyone. its when he/she never tells you his/her exact feelings, but you never really need to hear them. you just know. even when all your friends tell you its nothing at all, you know there's something. and that dear something is the one that keeps you holding on to the last minute.

these kind of people, the ones who make you smile just by thinking of them, pass by only once in our lives. it may last for years, it may last for days. it doesn't really matter. knowing them is an extraordinary experience already.

they'll go eventually. that's the downside. i know they'll go. and when they go, itll hurt. itll hurt a lot. but that hurt wont let us keep crying oceans. itll eventually tells us in the long run that when you had something that with the person, it was good. in fact, "it was the best".

loving - if thats what you call tragedy, then give me tragedy. --payton

to my dear friends who i saw crying just this week, i hope you guys are okay.