I Take It Back

Everything I've said on the previous post, I take it all back.

I am not living the life that I want. I want the best of both worlds. In fact, I always do. But norms, values, and all that crap tell me I can't. Why can't I just be happy with everything? Why do I have to be happy on one side, and depressed on the other? People think I've mastered the art of living two lives. Contrary to popular belief, I still consider myself an amateur. I don't wanna get used to spending my life divided.

It's your laughter that won't let me go. God.

I don't wanna be everyone's "favorite mistake". Im tired of that. I wanna be someone good to them. Now everything's so wrong. I feel so bad. As in really.

God, I feel like Meredith: dark and twisty.

I still wanna be Tori Amos though. I wanna be free from all this and do everything without people telling me I've gotten out of my mind.