Makes You and I Wonder

I'm sick of people putting all their doubts on me. I DO NOT LIE ALL THE TIME. My lies are selective. I lie so as not to hurt other people. They are not white lies though. They are lies to prevent me from hurting the people closest to me, plus it makes me get away with the little nasty deeds that I USED to do. You're right, there's no point in lying. So I'll try stopping for you.

I'm trying to change that "habit" now. I don't wanna add more CSIs on my list. Can't you see me trying? Don't I get at least an appreciation statement or something? I love you, I always do. I NEVER lie about my feelings, everybody knows that.

Maybe when I get to have that chance to be someone else and have a relationship with myself for a month, I'd be terrified and paranoid as hell too. I wouldn't know when and how to believe me when things get too suspicious. I'd check text messages and call registers too. In fact, I'd do everything you do.

Don't you oftentimes think that it's way better when we just enjoy our moments together instead of spending too much time interrogating OR fighting over who called me, who texted me, yada yada yada?! It's becoming a bit dragging, just so you know.

Wanna know how to catch me when I'm lying? Shout at me. I get scared when someone does that to me 'cause it reminds me of my angry mom. Go no holds barred shouting until you feel like you've said all your frustrations. If you're lucky, maybe I'll tell you the truth (assuming I'm lying at that particular moment). Wanna make sure what I told you was true? Ask the same questions to me after a month. The true answers are the ones that linger in my Dory-ish memory. If I don't give you the same answer, then for I'm sure dead.

There. Case closed.