Post Secrets II

"Although it's wonderful that you recommend 1(800) SUICIDE for suicidal people, not all people with secrets are depressed, oppressed or scared. I think secrets are a good thing. It makes a person more mysterious, sexy and unique. Secrets are fun, liberating; they make people who they are." - Canada

I've been gloomy these past few days that is why the moment I knew I had the liberty to do out-of-base work today, I headed to the bookstore for some "research". I scanned through different books, found so-so stuff and realized that all I needed can be found in Euromonitor already (Thanks Steph for getting them for me). Bottomline is I ended up reading about two other editions of my favorite book Post Secrets instead.

I don't feel entirely sad when I go through the postcards, or rather, I still feel sad, but I feel like there are a lot more people going through the same thing with me.

Reading them for about two hours (or more) made a whole lot of difference. I adore you, Frank Warren that is why I'm letting go of five of my secrets. Not that a lot of people would care, really. I just hope someone's touched by them in one way or another, the way I was touched by a lot of the secrets in the Post Secrets book.

1. My planner is half the story. Everything is in my diary (Yes, I have one) and nobody knows where it is because if someone finds out, I'm pretty sure it's to my detriment.

2. I sleep in a house that feels like a dorm room. When I'm out of it, I feel more free, more me.

3. I'm scared because everyday I become more and more like the person I swore I'll never be. I see it, they see it. I'm terrified day after day.

4. The absence of love in my dorm room makes me selfish with outside love. I'm so numb at being wrong that I oftentimes do what I want to do, thinking that if I don't get that love instantly, I'll regret it for the rest of my life. I have never been officially single since 2000.

5. I look at the accounts of those people that I miss a lot. I don't want them to know that I check them though because I want them to check mine first.

So there. No judging, please. Thank you.