even the best fall down sometimes

ive always thought the world is mine. not literally, of course. ive always had this idea that i could do anything i want, when i want it. nah. all crap. with all the bitching and harshness this worlds got to offer, i dont think i can. i dont think anyone can for that matter. save me from all your negative comments. according to jacq, we gotta be realistic nowadays. here i am pouring some of my frustrations out.

i envy a lot of people who actually live by their dreams. i guess reality was an asset than a liability to them. such luck. bubba's dad started from scratch and looking at where he is now, grabe, so surreal! or that girl i read in cosmo ages ago. she started out as a factory worker but because of her hardwork, she was able to make herself worth millions now. adore them , i do. HOW I WISH I COULD BE LIKE THEM. i will be. soon. but my advertising company has to wait for now. til that time comes, i guess id have to keep on falling down that pit that a lot of people before me have gone to.

to fall is to go down. for some people, falling is the start of their unexpected journey. thats the hardest part. even in relationships. falling for the person is the start of another rocky road part of your life. not that im complaining. its actually pretty good for a person, right?

how i love falling for someone. ok so i may have SOME issues when it comes to falling for only one person at a time but i think with aidz, ive "proven" myself worthy of being part of the stick-to-one gang. uhhhuuuhhh.

going back, everybody falls. noone escapes from the fall. even those jaded ones. i dont even think those jaded people are actually done with love. no no no! they may be resting (what the?). but eventually, they wont be able to stop themselves from falling. they say theyre done with love but theyre just waiting for it.

my advice? dont be afraid to fall not just in love but in anything for that matter. hey, even the best fall down sometimes..... even the stars refuse to shine... out of the back you'll fall in time.


gotta sleep. insomia is taking out the best of me already. no coherence anymore.