memories all alone in the moonlight

edwin jan gamboa tan


we now have this big space between us. sad but true. he's been my dearest bestfriend ever since me and aidz became a couple. the rest was history.


close. nah. super close. we were, and still are, super close. dont really know whats happening now but its really fucking depressing when i think of it. weve been irritating each other constantly with our own set of hirits. tsk tsk tsk. damn those hirits.

we give each other little things. little things that matter. he might not know it but everything he gave me, i appreciate them all. i could call him my dear hero (gawd such terms!). my savior (gotta let me be with my terms, really. even i feel weird using them). if i have to name every bit of favor he did for me, damn, i could write for hours and i guess i still wont be able to mention everything. no kidding. here's a few. ^one tear from my eye and its him i call. he might not give me the best of advices but he sure could listen. ^breakup=eli. in a good way that is. he helped fix every breakup i had with aidz. ^he would treat me most of the time. though there are times when he would complain about the treating thing, he'd still do it. i love that he spoils me. he better! I SPOIL HIM TOO! (he better know that!) haha! kidding aside, i love that he's always there for me. one text that im sad and he'd go to where i am. he'd give those out of this world ideas (but hey, they actually make sense). he would always explain the guys' point of view especially when me and aidz are fighting over some pathetic thing that i (as expected) started.


i keep on thinking why we fight most of the time now. its like everything i say is a way of attacking him. so not true. why is it that a lot of the things i tell him now offends him? its never my intention to hurt his feelings. really. well if i really did hurt him, im sorry. he hurts me with his hirits too. but i let them pass even if im really hurt by them. i may smile at them but im fuckin hurt deep inside. i know they're just for laughs but there are times when i really get so paranoid by them na. i just wish he'd stop those. how i wish he'd let my hirits just pass too. when you really think about it, its kinda pathetic.

it sucks that were like this. it sucks even more that i have to write something like this. i really miss hanging out with him. yosi. inom. bum. kain. laugh trip. deep shit usap. and the likes. you get the picture.

li if you're reading this, i miss you. lets stop all this na. isnt it killing you? its obviously killing me. i miss night outs with you, me, bubba dear, and bok.

memories all alone in the moonlight