Here's an UPDATED list of self-realizations. Im looking forward to reading this 10 years after.
1. I've been to a lot of super expensive restaurants here and abroad but nothing beats the taste of fast food and good 'ol Mr. Kebab.
2. Nice clothes make me really happy but unique,lovely pieces from ukay ukay give me that unexplainable high.
3. I'm obsessed with plucking, fixing my bedsheet (making them so crisp is so addictive, and organizing my Ipod (titles should all be in small letters, etc.)
4. I thought I didn't like watching TV but when I finally had one in my room, I was hooked.
5. I may not seem like it but I actually love alternative and punk music. They make me steady happy.
6. Pink looks best on me than any other color.
7. I can never be on a strict diet. Ever.
8. I am better than I actually think I am.
9. The only people who could actually make me laugh my heart out are Conan O Brien, my bestfriend Ning, Melo Jose, Ramon Bautista, and the famous yet non-existent Ben.
10. I can never walk on icky, rocky, lumot-y, wet floors. Ugh. Thinking about it makes me shiver.
11. I am one jealous girl.
12. I will never age. I just know it. I have a heart of a hippie!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Friday, August 24, 2007
My new job as a Beckham groupie
I still consider the Olsen twins as my first love though.
I just can't resist loving Victoria Beckham. She's way too adorable! I love her! After watching her "documentary", I was hooked.
And oh..
Need I say more?
I just can't resist loving Victoria Beckham. She's way too adorable! I love her! After watching her "documentary", I was hooked.
And oh..
Need I say more?
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms race
My friend is getting married and I, along with all others, am very shocked.
Are we that mature enough to engage in such agreements? I don't think so. In fact, I feel so young that I'm finally getting my tattoo after my birthday. Bwaha. My long time idea is finally happening. How mature. Fine, the bride-to-be and I have different lifestyles already but I doubt that we have way different levels of maturity. In fact, I sometimes feel more mature than her when it comes to decisions regarding matters of the heart. But then again, I may be wrong. Honey, why?!?!?!?! Hinay lang, wag kang papasok sa di mo makakayang labasan pag kailangan na. I better get a superb explanation 'cause otherwise, I won't be believing in that marriage that much.
We once danced to Backstreet Boys and Moffatts songs. What happened to the whole "Let's have fun before marrying?"idea? God, I'm scared to even buy a dress that I'm gonna wear for THE (one and only) wedding that's (SUPPOSED TO) happen next year. Come on friends, we are still so young and free! Who would want to let go of that?!
I am totally tripped out by the whole thing. I can't let go of it that I had to call my in-a-relationship-but-definitely-not-married friend about it. Good thing she's on my side.
Goodluck 3cx. Hope you're happy. I will be if you are.
Are we that mature enough to engage in such agreements? I don't think so. In fact, I feel so young that I'm finally getting my tattoo after my birthday. Bwaha. My long time idea is finally happening. How mature. Fine, the bride-to-be and I have different lifestyles already but I doubt that we have way different levels of maturity. In fact, I sometimes feel more mature than her when it comes to decisions regarding matters of the heart. But then again, I may be wrong. Honey, why?!?!?!?! Hinay lang, wag kang papasok sa di mo makakayang labasan pag kailangan na. I better get a superb explanation 'cause otherwise, I won't be believing in that marriage that much.
We once danced to Backstreet Boys and Moffatts songs. What happened to the whole "Let's have fun before marrying?"idea? God, I'm scared to even buy a dress that I'm gonna wear for THE (one and only) wedding that's (SUPPOSED TO) happen next year. Come on friends, we are still so young and free! Who would want to let go of that?!
I am totally tripped out by the whole thing. I can't let go of it that I had to call my in-a-relationship-but-definitely-not-married friend about it. Good thing she's on my side.
Goodluck 3cx. Hope you're happy. I will be if you are.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Fall in love with..
Falloutboy!
Sept. 21, 2007, Araneta Coliseum: It's a date! Thank you Bibi.
I CANT WAITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Time after time
I am sorry for hurting you that much. You don't deserve any of it but I know I just had to tell you sooner or later. There were a lot of things unsaid, a lot of issues not discussed. I must admit, I don't usually give out the secrets of my heart and mind, and I know that's totally unfair to you. I'll be waiting for the next time we're given the chance to talk.
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time.
If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time.
Monday, July 23, 2007
Circles
I had a realization the other day: The only way for a person to be happier or close to being contented with life and everything else is to be surrounded by different things, experiences, people, etc that make them happy all at the same time. It's not healthy to let yourself be sucked up by one "fulfilling" "self-gratifying" activity, one set of friends, work, etc 'cause in the end, when that so-called dependable thing/person lets you down, you have nowhere to go but back where you started.
I actually envy and have high respects for those who pursue something that they have wanted to do ever since. All I'm saying is that it's nice to have other things going for you too instead of just one, because when certain unexpected and unnecessary things happen, you may not be able to absorb the idea that you'd have to stay away from your obsession for awhile. And when that happens, you'll be going through a difficult detoxification.
"People, people, please!!!" - Raven Ah lav dat layn! The only people that you need in your life are the ones who prove that they need you in theirs. If someone makes you feel like she/he doesn't need you, then you are wasting your time on one person when you could be making another person feel more important.
I know that life is about taking chances, but life is also about being happy. The more you crave for unnecessary things, the more you'll end up getting frustrated with the world, and then with your life.
I actually envy and have high respects for those who pursue something that they have wanted to do ever since. All I'm saying is that it's nice to have other things going for you too instead of just one, because when certain unexpected and unnecessary things happen, you may not be able to absorb the idea that you'd have to stay away from your obsession for awhile. And when that happens, you'll be going through a difficult detoxification.
"People, people, please!!!" - Raven Ah lav dat layn! The only people that you need in your life are the ones who prove that they need you in theirs. If someone makes you feel like she/he doesn't need you, then you are wasting your time on one person when you could be making another person feel more important.
I know that life is about taking chances, but life is also about being happy. The more you crave for unnecessary things, the more you'll end up getting frustrated with the world, and then with your life.
Friday, July 20, 2007
Rise
You should believe me
And everything I choose to do
You should believe that I’ll
Always come back to you
Life is discovering
The love that we create
Life is a mystery
We need to embrace
In every way
You need to let go
You’ll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin’
Open your mind and see
We have everything we need
Dream or reality
Fulfill its destiny
In every way
You need to let go
You’ll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
You need to let go…
I miss Tyler.
Im happy that everything's so easy for me right now. Im on my road to success,I know it!
People rise, I rise.
And everything I choose to do
You should believe that I’ll
Always come back to you
Life is discovering
The love that we create
Life is a mystery
We need to embrace
In every way
You need to let go
You’ll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
People rise together
When they believe in tomorrow
Change the day to forever
This life keeps movin’
Open your mind and see
We have everything we need
Dream or reality
Fulfill its destiny
In every way
You need to let go
You’ll see all your dreams will follow
In every way
You need to let go
You need to let go…
I miss Tyler.
Im happy that everything's so easy for me right now. Im on my road to success,I know it!
People rise, I rise.
Friday, July 13, 2007
A Healthier Me
I've been doing pilates AND taebo recently and I feel great! Suprisingly! I swear, everything I've read in magazines about how physical activities can actually make a person feel a lot better are actually true.
For a long time I hated working out 'cause I thought there's no point in sweating that much if you can do something way easier.
1. There's pills for the ultimately tamad people who want fast results. I took chances with the diet pills and mind you, they do work. Thing is, diet pills give you fast results but fast comebacks. The moment you stop taking those deceiving pills, all the fats come back with vengeances! I took these diet pills that were so effective people were shocked with the results with only 10 days of trying them. Unfortunately, I was the one shocked 10 days after those 10 days. The moment I stopped taking the pills, I gained every bit of the fats I lost and so much more.
Oh no, I didn't stop there! I took another set of diet pills. This batch of pills made me say "No more tabs/pills/capsules from now on" (at least for now). My body shaked the whole time and my head throbbed so bad that everytime I took them, it felt like waking up from a drunken party the night before. Well, it said "for obese people" at the back of the box so I guess I'm partly to blame for everything that happened. I mean I think I'm fat but I'm definitely not obese and yet I didn't listen.
2. Of course there's the other type of drugs that people could rely on to for thinner bodies and happier moments. Shabu, cocaine, etc. - I won't go that far anymore, sorry. I only wanna be thinner, not dead.
3. Not eating must be the most stupid thing a person can do in order to be thin. First of all, not eating would only make you think of food twice as much as you do normally. Second, thinking of food twice as much would make you double your intake of food. Third, even if you actually fight the urge of eating too much, the moment you munch that favorite food of yours would make you forget you promised not to eat anymore. You'll chug everything in by the time you get to taste one of your favorite foods again. So much for the so-called discipline.
Reasons why I love working out now:
1. It makes me feel more alive during the day. I'm already way energetic, but working out makes me feel so awake that I get to do more things. More energy mas happy!
2. I don't pressure myself to be thin like most people I know. My goal now is to be healthy. Side wishes nalang na I get to be thinner too. All I have to do now is eat healthier and then I'm off for sure to a better me!
3. I get to laugh at myself after doing all those stupid moves and breathing techniques that the instructor wants me to do. "Remember, you have to push your powerhouse up to your ribs as you breathe out to get better results." and "Squeeze those buns as you circle your legs to your back." If only people could see me with my focused face..
4. Working out makes me glow. I know, I know. I swear, SOME people say I'm glowing right now. Maybe it's because of the workout. Or maybe it's Olay. Oh well.
I hope I don't get bored after a few months. I've been pretty consistent and I'm proud of that. I just wish I will be able to keep this up. Who knows, I might get that Jessica Alba body I've been wanting to have. (Tsssss, whatever!)
For a long time I hated working out 'cause I thought there's no point in sweating that much if you can do something way easier.
1. There's pills for the ultimately tamad people who want fast results. I took chances with the diet pills and mind you, they do work. Thing is, diet pills give you fast results but fast comebacks. The moment you stop taking those deceiving pills, all the fats come back with vengeances! I took these diet pills that were so effective people were shocked with the results with only 10 days of trying them. Unfortunately, I was the one shocked 10 days after those 10 days. The moment I stopped taking the pills, I gained every bit of the fats I lost and so much more.
Oh no, I didn't stop there! I took another set of diet pills. This batch of pills made me say "No more tabs/pills/capsules from now on" (at least for now). My body shaked the whole time and my head throbbed so bad that everytime I took them, it felt like waking up from a drunken party the night before. Well, it said "for obese people" at the back of the box so I guess I'm partly to blame for everything that happened. I mean I think I'm fat but I'm definitely not obese and yet I didn't listen.
2. Of course there's the other type of drugs that people could rely on to for thinner bodies and happier moments. Shabu, cocaine, etc. - I won't go that far anymore, sorry. I only wanna be thinner, not dead.
3. Not eating must be the most stupid thing a person can do in order to be thin. First of all, not eating would only make you think of food twice as much as you do normally. Second, thinking of food twice as much would make you double your intake of food. Third, even if you actually fight the urge of eating too much, the moment you munch that favorite food of yours would make you forget you promised not to eat anymore. You'll chug everything in by the time you get to taste one of your favorite foods again. So much for the so-called discipline.
Reasons why I love working out now:
1. It makes me feel more alive during the day. I'm already way energetic, but working out makes me feel so awake that I get to do more things. More energy mas happy!
2. I don't pressure myself to be thin like most people I know. My goal now is to be healthy. Side wishes nalang na I get to be thinner too. All I have to do now is eat healthier and then I'm off for sure to a better me!
3. I get to laugh at myself after doing all those stupid moves and breathing techniques that the instructor wants me to do. "Remember, you have to push your powerhouse up to your ribs as you breathe out to get better results." and "Squeeze those buns as you circle your legs to your back." If only people could see me with my focused face..
4. Working out makes me glow. I know, I know. I swear, SOME people say I'm glowing right now. Maybe it's because of the workout. Or maybe it's Olay. Oh well.
I hope I don't get bored after a few months. I've been pretty consistent and I'm proud of that. I just wish I will be able to keep this up. Who knows, I might get that Jessica Alba body I've been wanting to have. (Tsssss, whatever!)
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Way back into us
No matter how far we all go, we will always go back to us.
I will miss you John Milton. We will always be the classics. It will never be the same without the feeling of you just a text or phone call away.
I love you! The bitches love you! When you come back, gimik bastos na to!
I will miss you John Milton. We will always be the classics. It will never be the same without the feeling of you just a text or phone call away.
I love you! The bitches love you! When you come back, gimik bastos na to!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
30 Activities that make me happy
1. Getting a haircut - My short hair gives me that lame excuse to have a haircut even if don't necessarily need it
2. Putting stuff in my scrapbook / stress reliever
3. Watching gigs / concerts - I haven't done this in a long time
4. Shopping for happy clothes
5. Drinking - It's fun to drink especially when you're with your pep squad
6. Preparing for my long-awaited graduation - Finally, my last hoorah! Ima make this sweet!
7. Eating - Contradictory to my long-life dream to go on a strict diet
8. Being surrounded by people - I don't have to be surrounded by friends per say; Seeing other people is enough to make me sane
9. Gobil
10. Going out of town or out of the country
11. Attending parties
12. Working for Tyler and Aspac Ad Agency
13. Starting pilates
14. Getting a massage - I AM ALWAYS STRESSED.
15. Looking at myself in the mirror doing everything imagineable from singing to dancing to crying to talking to acting
16. Dancing alone in the shower with the music in full blast
17. Listening to my happy songs - My Ipod had to be replaced with a new one because of overusage, according to the people in MAC center
18. Receiving stuff from people - I am one materialistic person, and I love it!
19. Going to Theme Parks
20. Swimming
21. Sleeping
22. Making other people laugh - I'm confident to say that I'm so good at this already.
23. Watching TV Series - Current obsessions include Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, One Tree Hill, L Word
24. Taking pictures
25. Getting my nails done
26. Shopping for other people
27. Going inside a Party Needs store
28. Watching sappy-crappy Tagalog movies - I love movies in general but Tagalog "romantic" movies make me ecstatic
29. Riding a fast car at night and at a free-flowing road with the windows down
30. Cleaning my room with my closet as the first priority
2. Putting stuff in my scrapbook / stress reliever
3. Watching gigs / concerts - I haven't done this in a long time
4. Shopping for happy clothes
5. Drinking - It's fun to drink especially when you're with your pep squad
6. Preparing for my long-awaited graduation - Finally, my last hoorah! Ima make this sweet!
7. Eating - Contradictory to my long-life dream to go on a strict diet
8. Being surrounded by people - I don't have to be surrounded by friends per say; Seeing other people is enough to make me sane
9. Gobil
10. Going out of town or out of the country
11. Attending parties
12. Working for Tyler and Aspac Ad Agency
13. Starting pilates
14. Getting a massage - I AM ALWAYS STRESSED.
15. Looking at myself in the mirror doing everything imagineable from singing to dancing to crying to talking to acting
16. Dancing alone in the shower with the music in full blast
17. Listening to my happy songs - My Ipod had to be replaced with a new one because of overusage, according to the people in MAC center
18. Receiving stuff from people - I am one materialistic person, and I love it!
19. Going to Theme Parks
20. Swimming
21. Sleeping
22. Making other people laugh - I'm confident to say that I'm so good at this already.
23. Watching TV Series - Current obsessions include Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, One Tree Hill, L Word
24. Taking pictures
25. Getting my nails done
26. Shopping for other people
27. Going inside a Party Needs store
28. Watching sappy-crappy Tagalog movies - I love movies in general but Tagalog "romantic" movies make me ecstatic
29. Riding a fast car at night and at a free-flowing road with the windows down
30. Cleaning my room with my closet as the first priority
Friday, June 15, 2007
Ms. Halfway goes all the way
But these places and these faces are getting old, so I'm going home to the place where I belong - CLOTHES.
Ever since I got hold of that magazine that featured people with success stories ages ago, I've had countless attempts to actualize my small dreams with friend/s.
Sure, the passion for the dream mini businesses was so there, but the willingness to finalize the ideas was not present at all. Laziness got the best of us before so now that I'm giving a go signal to this new idea, I'm not letting stupid laziness get in the way again.
I have a good team with me and if ever God tests me with people who will eventually become lazy at the middle of the whole process, I know I can still count on one person to go with me all the way.
Cross your fingers and wish us luck. It's not gonna be easy.
I’m gonna burn, I’m gonna shine and multiply
I’m gonna fill up the great divide
You’ll never break me with all the things you say
“Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway”
Ever since I got hold of that magazine that featured people with success stories ages ago, I've had countless attempts to actualize my small dreams with friend/s.
Sure, the passion for the dream mini businesses was so there, but the willingness to finalize the ideas was not present at all. Laziness got the best of us before so now that I'm giving a go signal to this new idea, I'm not letting stupid laziness get in the way again.
I have a good team with me and if ever God tests me with people who will eventually become lazy at the middle of the whole process, I know I can still count on one person to go with me all the way.
Cross your fingers and wish us luck. It's not gonna be easy.
I’m gonna burn, I’m gonna shine and multiply
I’m gonna fill up the great divide
You’ll never break me with all the things you say
“Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway”
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Makes You and I Wonder
I'm sick of people putting all their doubts on me. I DO NOT LIE ALL THE TIME. My lies are selective. I lie so as not to hurt other people. They are not white lies though. They are lies to prevent me from hurting the people closest to me, plus it makes me get away with the little nasty deeds that I USED to do. You're right, there's no point in lying. So I'll try stopping for you.
I'm trying to change that "habit" now. I don't wanna add more CSIs on my list. Can't you see me trying? Don't I get at least an appreciation statement or something? I love you, I always do. I NEVER lie about my feelings, everybody knows that.
Maybe when I get to have that chance to be someone else and have a relationship with myself for a month, I'd be terrified and paranoid as hell too. I wouldn't know when and how to believe me when things get too suspicious. I'd check text messages and call registers too. In fact, I'd do everything you do.
Don't you oftentimes think that it's way better when we just enjoy our moments together instead of spending too much time interrogating OR fighting over who called me, who texted me, yada yada yada?! It's becoming a bit dragging, just so you know.
Wanna know how to catch me when I'm lying? Shout at me. I get scared when someone does that to me 'cause it reminds me of my angry mom. Go no holds barred shouting until you feel like you've said all your frustrations. If you're lucky, maybe I'll tell you the truth (assuming I'm lying at that particular moment). Wanna make sure what I told you was true? Ask the same questions to me after a month. The true answers are the ones that linger in my Dory-ish memory. If I don't give you the same answer, then for I'm sure dead.
There. Case closed.
I'm trying to change that "habit" now. I don't wanna add more CSIs on my list. Can't you see me trying? Don't I get at least an appreciation statement or something? I love you, I always do. I NEVER lie about my feelings, everybody knows that.
Maybe when I get to have that chance to be someone else and have a relationship with myself for a month, I'd be terrified and paranoid as hell too. I wouldn't know when and how to believe me when things get too suspicious. I'd check text messages and call registers too. In fact, I'd do everything you do.
Don't you oftentimes think that it's way better when we just enjoy our moments together instead of spending too much time interrogating OR fighting over who called me, who texted me, yada yada yada?! It's becoming a bit dragging, just so you know.
Wanna know how to catch me when I'm lying? Shout at me. I get scared when someone does that to me 'cause it reminds me of my angry mom. Go no holds barred shouting until you feel like you've said all your frustrations. If you're lucky, maybe I'll tell you the truth (assuming I'm lying at that particular moment). Wanna make sure what I told you was true? Ask the same questions to me after a month. The true answers are the ones that linger in my Dory-ish memory. If I don't give you the same answer, then for I'm sure dead.
There. Case closed.
Friday, June 08, 2007
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
La Copa
La Copa will behaving a private sale and I will be participating there again as an event stylist. I will be having private invitations so if you guys want to come just let me know! The clothes are to die for, trust me!
In preparation for our new collection, La Copa is having a sale event at Mancor Corporate Center, the Fort on June 15-17.
Don't miss the chance to get a hold of the last few pieces of our present collection - unique items only La Copa has to offer.
Message me on my tagboard for more details or check out lacopastory.blogspot.com.
Friday, May 18, 2007
He is so back!
Elliot Yamin!!
I just can't let this day pass without giving him credit. He is so hot with that "Im a neanderthal" look! Who would have thought?! Seriously, I can't believe he's back!
He's one of the few people in AI with a pure and humble heart that's why it's so nice to see him really make it in the music industry! (unlike those old contestants who would bet on their lives just to prove to the world that they'll make it big after being booted off the show but ages after, still no single from them!) I love love love Yamin! Remember his grandma? Or was it his mom? Either way, I love her too.
Didn't see it coming, swear. Katherine McPhee and Chris Daughtry would be automatic stars but Elliot? Wow! The moment he sang on AI, I got my laptop and downloaded it! It's the very first time I've ever done that while watching the show. I didn't do it when Kelly Pickler sang.
I guess dreams do come true to some people. Good for them! Good for that cutie Elliot! I will so support him, I swear.
Three posts in one day. Oh wow. Bored as hell.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
I Take It Back
Everything I've said on the previous post, I take it all back.
I am not living the life that I want. I want the best of both worlds. In fact, I always do. But norms, values, and all that crap tell me I can't. Why can't I just be happy with everything? Why do I have to be happy on one side, and depressed on the other? People think I've mastered the art of living two lives. Contrary to popular belief, I still consider myself an amateur. I don't wanna get used to spending my life divided.
It's your laughter that won't let me go. God.
I don't wanna be everyone's "favorite mistake". Im tired of that. I wanna be someone good to them. Now everything's so wrong. I feel so bad. As in really.
God, I feel like Meredith: dark and twisty.
I still wanna be Tori Amos though. I wanna be free from all this and do everything without people telling me I've gotten out of my mind.
I am not living the life that I want. I want the best of both worlds. In fact, I always do. But norms, values, and all that crap tell me I can't. Why can't I just be happy with everything? Why do I have to be happy on one side, and depressed on the other? People think I've mastered the art of living two lives. Contrary to popular belief, I still consider myself an amateur. I don't wanna get used to spending my life divided.
It's your laughter that won't let me go. God.
I don't wanna be everyone's "favorite mistake". Im tired of that. I wanna be someone good to them. Now everything's so wrong. I feel so bad. As in really.
God, I feel like Meredith: dark and twisty.
I still wanna be Tori Amos though. I wanna be free from all this and do everything without people telling me I've gotten out of my mind.
A Sorta Fairytale
While waiting for Vir for lunch awhile ago, I overheard two friends talking. They were both a little old but from the way they sat, talked, and laughed, it was very evident that they were pretty strong and still energetic for their age.
Girl: "Nakakainis my kids! They kept on calling and calling! They're now in America living the lives that they wanted. They wanted to be independent and so I finally let them go. For once I want to live my own life. Now that Im pretty old, Id like to travel! I want to go places and I have enough money for it! I have provided all my kids their own houses in La Vista and in the US and now all I want is a condo where I can relax everytime I go home from a vacation. I need one, you know!"
Boy: "Then I'll go with you! Punta tayo Milan next week you want?"
Girl: "Sige!"
They didn't seem like lovers to me. They just looked like two old friends who have remained that way since forever. I would love that too.
Im happy Im living my life the way I want it to be right now. There might be little disappointments on the side, but at least I get to live my life the way I want it to be. I don't want to grow old and imagine the what couldve been life. I want to take things slow, absorb every thing that's happening and let it all sink in. I dont want to forget. I dont want to be forgotten.
Look at how free Tori Amos is. She's such a goddess. I love her
Girl: "Nakakainis my kids! They kept on calling and calling! They're now in America living the lives that they wanted. They wanted to be independent and so I finally let them go. For once I want to live my own life. Now that Im pretty old, Id like to travel! I want to go places and I have enough money for it! I have provided all my kids their own houses in La Vista and in the US and now all I want is a condo where I can relax everytime I go home from a vacation. I need one, you know!"
Boy: "Then I'll go with you! Punta tayo Milan next week you want?"
Girl: "Sige!"
They didn't seem like lovers to me. They just looked like two old friends who have remained that way since forever. I would love that too.
Im happy Im living my life the way I want it to be right now. There might be little disappointments on the side, but at least I get to live my life the way I want it to be. I don't want to grow old and imagine the what couldve been life. I want to take things slow, absorb every thing that's happening and let it all sink in. I dont want to forget. I dont want to be forgotten.
Look at how free Tori Amos is. She's such a goddess. I love her
Saturday, May 12, 2007
A Certain Romance
The point's that there ain't no romance around there, and there's the truth that they can't see. They'd probably like to throw a punch at me and if you could only see them, then you would agree that there ain't no romance around there.
They'll never listen 'cause their minds are made up and, OF COURSE, it's all okay to carry on that way
Over there there's broken bones, and it don't take no Sherlock Holmes to see it's a little different.
I should have said:
No! Oh no!
Well you won't get me to go!
Not anywhere, not anywhere
No I won't go
But as expected, I didn't.
Over there there's friends of mine. What can I say, I've known 'em for a long long time and yah, they might overstep the line but I just cannot get angry in the same way.
Wish me luck. I'll be going to some place I know I'll be too uncomfortable to even talk. Guardian angel, be with me tonight.
They'll never listen 'cause their minds are made up and, OF COURSE, it's all okay to carry on that way
Over there there's broken bones, and it don't take no Sherlock Holmes to see it's a little different.
I should have said:
No! Oh no!
Well you won't get me to go!
Not anywhere, not anywhere
No I won't go
But as expected, I didn't.
Over there there's friends of mine. What can I say, I've known 'em for a long long time and yah, they might overstep the line but I just cannot get angry in the same way.
Wish me luck. I'll be going to some place I know I'll be too uncomfortable to even talk. Guardian angel, be with me tonight.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Caring is creepy
One minute we're the best of friends, or so others assume we are, next minute we can't bear seeing each other. It's never gonna end, huh? Sometimes I wonder why I even bother reaching out. It's so useless that from now on, I'd rather do my own pedicure and manicure than reach out to you guys. And to think I hate doing that.
I do deserve pretty things because.. well I just do. I'm your fucking daughter for crying out loud! I have the right to leech from your so-called riches and use it to my advantage in any way possible. But do I actually get to have that luxury? Sige, fine, sometimes. But when you compare my status with Bobby's, or Patricia's even, God, you wouldn't even consider me part of the family anymore! I swear. I was jealous before but now, I don't even know what to feel. I hope I'm that jaded but I'm still not.
Pucha, SO WHAT. Fine, buy Bobby his second car. Fine, give him my new laptop 'cause you think he needs it more than I do. Go ahead, looks like he's missing out on a lot of things anyway. I'm happy being the person you don't text anymore. I'm happy that I get to go to anywhere I want to, whenever I want to. I'm finally free from you guys. Finally.
This is so relaxing. Weird.
Long live comfort in strangeness! I want you.
I do deserve pretty things because.. well I just do. I'm your fucking daughter for crying out loud! I have the right to leech from your so-called riches and use it to my advantage in any way possible. But do I actually get to have that luxury? Sige, fine, sometimes. But when you compare my status with Bobby's, or Patricia's even, God, you wouldn't even consider me part of the family anymore! I swear. I was jealous before but now, I don't even know what to feel. I hope I'm that jaded but I'm still not.
Pucha, SO WHAT. Fine, buy Bobby his second car. Fine, give him my new laptop 'cause you think he needs it more than I do. Go ahead, looks like he's missing out on a lot of things anyway. I'm happy being the person you don't text anymore. I'm happy that I get to go to anywhere I want to, whenever I want to. I'm finally free from you guys. Finally.
This is so relaxing. Weird.
Long live comfort in strangeness! I want you.
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