hear ye.

i suddenly remembered what you did. oh what big eyes you have! my gawd deary, the better to eat you with! im laughing out loud now.

here's the thing. i really want to go to amapulo. looked at some of the pictures awhile ago and it was breathtaking. i hope someone would bring me there. ahem. tss how i wish. i despise elites and their so-called lifestyle. they can go anywhere they want, without even thinking of the money they'll be spending. as to my own expenses, i dont even know if i have one. i literally ask my friends, especially you jacq, to treat me every single day. my money has been declining drastically and i hate it! someday sab, someday. we'll be rich and famous. im gonna be living that im-gonna-meet-a-hollywoodguy someday.

as for now, all i should be worrying about is my finals. but then again, i really don't give a damn about that, so why bother? got my clearance already. fuck! P500 as penalty for the seminars i wasnt able to attend to! fuck. all for the sake of the that lame exam pass.

went to jack's gig last monday at kublais. finally! according to jacq, "wala na kayong lusot ni sab". it was kinda weird seeing your friend sing on stage. it was even weirder knowing that jacq was THE friend who sang on stage. but you were great jacq, and im proud of you. sab and i are. just dont expect us to always show up on one your gigs. you know how we are. ;)

everything's back to normal with me and aidz. i was so scared it wouldnt. thank god. that was close.

sept 26, 2005

happy birthday vernice!

torn

nothings right, im torn.

been thinking a lot these past few days. found out a lot too. some things were so far out, some were basically normal.

i honestly dont know what to do. should i or should i not? its all so complicated. i want to sometimes, but i cant. i definitely cant.

how i hope everything will be back to normal soon.

to my dear friends who always listen, you have big hearts. i love you.

eli's favorite number

List your eight favorite songs and then pick eight people to do the same.

*aly you're such a sweetie! request granted.

1. I'LL BE - Edwin McCain (nakakahiya coz this is such a mainstream song. i think this is everybody's favorite)

2. EACH TIME - East 17

3. Eheads songs. Nothing compares.

4. DANCING IN THE MOONLIGHT

5. I NEED YOU - LeAnn Rimes

6. EVER AFTER - Bonnie Bailey (dian i love you)

7. WALKING AFTER YOU - Foo Fighters

8. COLLIDE - Howie Day

uhh the agony of choosing ONLY 8 favorite songs. in truth, ive got millions more! that's as of now, by the way. i might change my list tomorrow.

here's my wishlist:
sab, reji, jack, taker, eli, jinx, gi, aidz

celebrate good times, c'mon! lets celebrate!

here's some birthday highlights:

*** from aly's blog
Isang special greeting para sa special friend kong si…. Kar Sangalang,

Happy Birthday Karky!!

I love you!
*** your so sweet alypot! thank you!

*** this ones from reji's blog
i would like to sincerely apologize to someone really important. i hope you understand, i wanted to come last night but certain reasons failed to permit me. im really sorry Kar. i do hope i can make it up to you in one way or another.

im sure you had a blast last night. aidz is such a sweetie and you're more than lucky enough to have someone like him. cheers to the both of you. :)

HAPPY BIRHTDAY KAREN SANGALANG! :)
may you have many more fun-filled birthdays to come. :) i miss you a lot!
*** its ok reji dear. i miss you as well!


pre-birthday celebration with aidz, eli, taker, japs, doms, adi at Dapo, Tomas Morato
* eli's group hug
* taker's 'happy birthday ka' sabay hug
* japee's candle/tissue
* bub's flower

dinner with the family + aidz, mar, xavier and ning at Kagayaki, Tomas
* same old wacky us (ning, mar, moi)
* papa's innate ability to make a lot of people laugh



surprise party













for more pictures, see karkar0905.multiply.com
;) sorry im too lazy to upload the pictures again. hihi

thanks to those people who greeted me yesterday! to those who were part of the surprise party (whether you were there or not), you guys made my day! a special thanks to you aidz. planning a surprise party aint a bag of chips, you know. thanks to my family also. im grateful for having you guys as my angels. i love life, but i love you more.

birthday blahs

tommorow's my birthday! cant seem to let go of this excitement ive been feeling for the past few weeks. its been like this every year. sleepness nights of wondering whats gonna happen on that special day. oh yes, its a special day ;) it will forever be.

my gawd. im 20 years old already! uhh. the dreaded line of 2. 10 years ago, i assumed that old age starts at 18. tssss! look at me now. a totally irresponsible, playful adult. nothing really changes. im still the childish, pacute, not to mention sweet girl that i was 8 years ago. ha! who cares about maturity when its totally boring being an adult who follows all the rules anyway? at least 30 years from now, i can tell my kids (grandchildren even) that i was a kickass 20 year old! yes, kickass! bwahahaha

im excited for tomorrow. i dont know whats REALLY gonna happen. pucha. im having butterflies again.

slow down

i feel so busy lately. being busy is inversely proportional to kar. kar, being the poser busy person that she is right now, therefore feels like she's in a fast paced environment.

finally had the time to start my sanction thing in school. 10 fucking hours of community service all because of 1) entering the campus without an ID 2) improper attire 3) another improper attire. wattaskul. had to sit alone in one corner for 3 hours yesterday labeling the next gazillion pages of the library's logbook. mind you, those three hours are now candidates for the longest moments of my life category. i should've logged in before Pat, Moya, Chacha and Shai did. they got better jobs. come to think of it, anything would've been way better than what i got. if it wasnt for the new MP3 player papa bought me, i couldve gone crazy. 3 hours done. 7 to go.

after the non-productive 'work', went to tajma to see jack. (hoy jack WAF ka! i got super wet only to find out you left already. waf ka!) went to see aidz after. we had a fight for around 40 mins. haha pathetic fights. i sometimes wonder why we even bother fighting when we both know that we cant stand being mad at each other. watched bravo's game in ateneo. im such a kabarkada. i dont even know who won yesterday. didnt care to actually ask them. ha. made it more obvious that i didnt really give a damn. went there for my friends and not to watch the game anyway.

got my clearance sheet yesterday also. see how hassled i was? gawd. i have so many things to do and pay before i get my permit! get my medical and transcript, finish my sanction, take a psychology test, pay every single seminar, assembly and activities of the school and my orgs that i wasnt able attend to. fuck. the paying part is around P600 this sem. nice one kar.

today. ahh today. had my recollection. learned a lot actually. id rather tell everything next time. i still feel harrassed by all the stuff that im doing lately. all i wanna do is dance the stress away but i cant.

tomorrow, il be having two major exams. what do i know about those two exams? nada. nice one again kar.

pardon me

pardon me while i burst.

gi: "kar may barok kang nasulat sa blog mo"

tsk tsk tsk. its frustrasting when i still make mistakes even when i know the right things to say / write. ha. whatever. waaahhh! i cant believe i used the word fighted! hahahaha. whatever!

anyhoo.

friday. aidz went to my house. its been a long time since he's actually been inside. he brought me blueberry cheesecake! such a sweetie! watched a lot like love. pardon us for being such late watechers of the movie. loved it, by the way. ashton had his ducks in a row: build his own company through the internet, buy himself a nice house, and marry a loving wife. i have my own ducks as well. as for now, here's what i got planned for the next ten years or so:
1. finish the magazine (sab! we better!)
2. graduate
3. marry aidz (shut up you cheeziness haters!)
4. work in an advertising company
5. ...then save enough money to start my own advertising company
6. buy myself a nice condo
7. buy my sister the dog she's been wanting to have

saturday. was at school. cant believe i forced myself to go. i usually wouldnt mind cutting. went to sab's house after. im back to my old bum days. missed you sab! and gi! hehe saturdays at tomas all over again.
happy birthday to third and aica! two of my cutest cousins! i love you both dearly!

sunday. today. went to aica's. as usual. ate a lot. as usual.
read celine lopez' article awhile ago. gawd she's so shallow. she's complaining throughout the entire article because she's so broke and there's nothing she can do about it. pucha. how can she be broke?! how can a person who's labeled as a true blue socialite with a condo just a stone throw away from central park be broke? yeah right. she was telling the readers that when we see her in any boho attire anytime soon, she's not just portraying the poor look like what the olsen twins do, but she's really poor na DAW. how i wish she gets to experience being soooo broke. haha. total bitterness to those who are.

anyway, o gotta go na. papa's calling from china. cant wait to talk to him!

maling akala

Di mo na kailangan magalinlangan
Kung tama ang gagawin mo
Basta't wag kalimutan magdahandahan
Kund di sigurado sa kalalabasan ng binabalak mo.
Maliit na butas lumalaki...
Konting gusot...dumadami....
Di mo maibabaon sa limot at bahala kapag nabulag ka ng maling akala...
May mga kumakalat na balita na ang kaligtasay madaling makuha...
Bago maniwala magisip-isip ka muna
Marami ang namamatay sa maling akala...


Maling Akala #1
Lu. Great Guy! Had fun during our 'inuman' yesterday. May sense ka din pala kausap. I always thought you're this one sabog guy all the time. Technically, you are sabog all the time. Even yesterday i guess. But at least I was able to talk to you. Hehe. Sa uulitin!

Maling Akala #2
Jacq, may mali tayong akala. Lets do something new to our bodies next week. Joy! joy! joy!

Maling Akala #3
Now i know the issue about the Bravo thing. Hehe.

Maling Akala #4
Two years na kami ni Aidz! So to you assholes who thought (and wished) we'd break up after a couple of months, guess you're wrong! We'll forever be! (right bub?)

Maling Akala #5
I can be hardworking after all. Helped Ate Ging sell during the 3day tiangge thing in Miriam. I love selling! I just hate the scorCHING sun part. It was really tiring but according to that oldie cliche, no pain, no gain.

Maling Akala #6
Had my individual orals last wed. My prof never thought i was that smart. I was telling him deep, intellectual terms that were not even asked during the whole "interview". He never thought I could be that "studious" and "learned" daw. Boo-yah. Haha During his class kasi, I'll either be: (1) absent (2) late (3) daydreaming (4)doodling (5) out for 40 mins eating with friends i saw in the caf (6) talking to my seatmates. He gave me an A for a job well done.

Maling Akala #7
Oh no Third! How I hope you're not what we think you are. You know your dad will be mad. But don't worry, whatever you are, I'll still love you like I always do.

Maling Akala #8
Papa's in China again for his new business with Ning's dad. He's always there so Im used to not getting any pasalubong from him when he's there. Id only expect something from him when he's from some country other than China. Anyhoo... he texted mommy yesterday and said that he went shopping for me already. Joy! Joy! Joy!

Maling Akala #9
Bubba's wallet is gone :( How can that be possible when it's only in his room?! To make things worse, it suddenly "disappeared" during our anniversary! Boohoo. At least we found a way to save the day.

nowhere fast

I take a look around
it's evident the scene has changed
and there are times when I feel improved
improved upon the past
and there are times when I
can't seem to understand at all
and yes it seems as though I'm going
nowhere really fucking fast
nowhere fast

Will I ever get to where I'm going
if I do will I know when I'm there?
if the wind blew me in the right direction, yeah
would I even care?
I would



read joseph's blog the other day. it was all about looking for love and "all that jazz". do we all really need someone to call ourselves "happy"? there'll be so many arguments on that but here's what i think.

to love is to live. to live is to love. i dont wanna be a hypocrite and tell you all that love is not that necessary. ive shown pure gusto on love ever since ive experienced it that im telling you now, ill never be jaded because of love.

we all need it but noone has to be crazy begging for one. love will come to those who wait. the more we rush into things, the lesser the chances of making everything work.


so sorry i have to babble love all over again. second anniversary's coming up. monday. excited.

simple life

was at tajma yesterday bumming when two street, german kids approached us - ana and paul. they were showing us handouts made by UP students. they looked sweet. i got the whole afternoon to bum so reading their handouts was not much of a hassle. and so i read. fuck.

their dad was an activist. he was a german humanitarian professor in germany (doi.). well anyway, he fighted for filipinas in germany who were maltreated, raped, blah, blah. and what did he get from that? nothing. come to think of it,he got something way worse than nothing. his family was tricked by the german embassy to leave germany and live in the philippines. when the professor and his kids (two of them happened to be ana and paul) got here, thats when they realized that the german embassy got everything they had in germany. the papers their government gave them stated that they were not allowed to go back to germany anymore. where were they to go? nowhere.

they now live in UP. as in literally in the streets of UP, infront of Palma Hall. the professor got blind and his wife is super sick. ana was in a hit and run accident already. paul, the cute kid, got raped by many rugby boys near sta. lucia already. fuck this world.

its so sad. the professor fought for equality and he didnt get that. its all so ironic.

i love what kurt said: "nothing good comes out of doing good". so right kurt. hats off to you for buying the professor his medicine!

everything's ok in the end, see?

we're okay. i think.

the bulacan trip was tremendously horrible but everythings ok now. im back in manila. i dont wanna go back to that place anymore. call me maarte, whatever, i dont care at all. good thing gaf, andal, yana, madel and our pseudo blockmate lye were there to make the trip more memorable.

my prof agreed not to fail me due to absences anymore. wooww!

bub i miss you. i havent seen you since saturday.

fuck. speaking of bub, our second anniversary is coming up. got things planned already. help me out guys oki? got a lot of things to do. bub we'll have fun on monday! im so excited.

anyway, i think i better go. i dont wanna be late for the supposed to be dropped class of mine. just used the free internet of this intel truck parked in our school.

tata for now.